Had my check up with the OB today.   Blood pressure was good, check up went well and just before Dr. Epperson was going to walk out, she asked me if anyone had checked my cervix.  I said, we just measured it last week, that’s how I ended up admitted.  She said “No, like check if you were dilated”.  No one had checked for that.  “Let’s check you out just in case, I’d hate to send you home to find out later that you were 3 cm dilated!”  So we checked.  And wouldn’t you know it … I am 3 cm dilated!  I think I was jinxed or maybe it’s just a Thursday thing since it was last week Thursday I was admitted too.

She left the room to make a call and came back in with “You just bought yourself a one way ticket”.  Meaning I’m now in the hospital until the babies come.

I got to walk myself over to the Birthing Center … my one last hurah!  My orders are pretty liberal.  I can go outside if I’d like to, I can shower, I can wear my own clothes and eat whatever I’d like.  They even ordered me a sleeping pill if i need it.  So far I don’t think I do, but it’s nice to know it’s an option.

I’m not going to lie, I was pretty upset when I first got the news.  I just wasn’t expecting it.  Now you’re probably saying, how could she not be expecting this?  But I was doing so well for so long, I never reset my frame of mind to being in the hospital.  I just envisioned myself at home.  So it hit me hard and fast.

Doug and I also got a tour of the NICU today.  We learned a lot!  There are a lot of milestones that occur in 32 weeks.  So I’m 32 weeks on Monday … we’ve got to keep them in AT LEAST that long if not longer.  They say that some women just start to dilate and then hang out and don’t go into labor for a few weeks.  There is also the possibility that we could have babies before Monday.  We just don’t know at this point and are hoping for as much time as the babies will give us.

I’ve got my apt with Dr. Miller tomorrow at 8:30am.  They’ll wheel me over there fore my appointment.  With all this commotion it’s going to be nice to not only see some friends who have been along with me for the ride, but also see these little booger beans in ultrasound.  See their hearts beating, see their little arms and legs and get some extra reassurance that they are doing ok in there.

Doug asked a really great question … how much time do we have from the time they decide to deliver the babies and when we actually have the surgery.  Dr. Epperson said it depends on why we decide to deliver.  If I got into labor we have more time.  They can give me magnesium sulfate to delay the labor and so forth.  If the babies show signs of distress, then we are going to go in a lot faster.  One of the biggest fears that runs in the back of my mind is what if the babies go into distress when I’m here by myself and Doug is at work and can’t get here before they take me in.  Or what if they have to knock me out completely and I miss the birth all together.  Silly worries, but they are there all the same.

I’ll do whatever I need to do to keep these babies warm and safe.  And right now, that’s keeping them in my belly.  A mother’s strength comes from the love for her children.

Tomorrow Doug has his Halloween costume contest at work.  He’s dressing up as Billy Mays ( a much thinner, but just as loud Billy Mays) … he BETTER WIN!  He sounds just like him!  I’m so excited to hear the results tomorrow!  Keep your fingers crossed and send happy thoughts of OxiClean his way!

Alright, it’s getting late and I should rest.  It’s a movie marathon with Rae, Abby and maybe Sarah tomorrow!  I’m so lucky to have such wonderful little sisters!

Love you all!