The feeling is so different today. There is a positive energy filling the room. We are laughing and conversing. Telling Owen funny stories.
Our day started on a better note. Not his cat scan was horrible and here is a comfort cart. On rounds this morning they said yesterday was a good day. After everything he’s been through he is doing as they could expect.
His lungs are slightly improved. His EEG shows some activity. That doesn’t mean that he’ll be ok but it means that’s it not flat. His kidneys are pumping out clear pee. Another good thing. He’s not in the clear. But today I fell like maybe, just maybe he could be apart of the 2%.
While saying a prayer over his bed this morning I heard him. I heard him say that he was here and coming back. My Owen. I can feel him. I have found him. He is not hurting. He is not alone. He is around us.
I was remembering how relaxed Owen is. My chill baby. He’s just waiting, not making a fuss. If anyone could relax enough to let his body heal on his own, he can do it. All we do now is wait.
Doug and I went home to shower and to see jaden. One of the first things that he asked me was if he could come see Owen in the hospital. I told him of he wanted to, he could. I told him that Owen looked a lot like when he was born…lots of tubes and beeping monitors. He said that it wasn’t scary and he missed his brother.
Jaden did great. He kissed his chunky thighs. He hugged him and touched his forehead. He danced around and even made two dolls. Universe jaden and universe Owen. Owen’s doll has two brains, the tape around his mouth and dots all over (which is his medicine that works very slow but very good).
I just can’t get over how positive today feels. I hope it’s not the calm before the storm but rather a calm from the prayers.
I want you all to know that I read every note on Facebook, text message or blog comment. I say your words as my prayers. Thank you for all of the support. I am blown away.
Tomorrow at 4:30am we start the warming process. We warm him slowly over 20 hours. I’m not sure when we start the tests to measure his brain activity … It’s one of my questions for rounds tonight. But we need to pray harder.
I have so much more to share. I’m sure I’ll be writing again tonight when I can’t sleep. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.