It’s quite magical how helping someone else can make you feel better about yourself.  Making these hats has given me such purpose at the end of the day.  It’s a measurable task.  I can be a mom all day long and have nothing physical to show for all of my hard work.  But when I have a hat, it just makes me feel like I actually accomplished something.  It’s silly really because I cared for three lives all day long.  I do a lot all day.  Being a mom is really important.  I know that.  But there is something about a little hat with a cute felt monster on it that makes me feel a little more accomplished.

It also reminds me that I still have more to give.  My life isn’t that crazy that I can’t spend a little time each day helping someone else.  It was about an hour a day that I crocheted … a hat and sometimes more a day.  I crocheted while I watched tv or while Doug and I chatted about our days.  My fingers did all the work, it wasn’t something I had to think about to do.  I spent a little time while the babies napped and after I cleaned up lunch.  ok … sometimes I crocheted before I cleaned up because it became like daily therapy for me.

Each and every hat I made was unique.  59 different color patterns with different felt appliques on them.  All I kept thinking was that each of these little kids were different and unique – they all have their own story – and I wanted them to have something as special as they are.  I’m giving a little piece of Owen to each of these children to wear as a shield of their own.  I thought of Owen each stitch I made … I think of him with just about every breath I take.  I prayed that my little warrior would watch out for all these other warrior children out there.  I prayed for the parents who are fighting right along with their sick children.

I posted pictures of all the hats I made below.  I’m really excited to share this project with you all.

Love, Mel