The past few nights I haven’t been able to sleep. I find myself watching every show in our DVR log … tweeting about the creepy noises my house makes at 1am. But I just can’t go to sleep. During the day I’m exhausted. I can barely get out off bed in the morning. But 9pm hits and I’m wide awake. WHY?
With all this extra time to think I’ve been thinking about rest and how our society doesn’t really look “fondly” upon it. Think about Sunday in your house. If it’s anything like mine it’s usually a day to catch up on laundry and run errands or random house projects. We were made for a day of rest, yet there is no time for it in our culture.
How do we carve out time to sit, meditate and rest in a culture that thrives on go-go-go? How do you take time for yourself and fight the stigma of being lazy or selfish? Do you even remember what it feels like to calm down and rejuvenate? Being a mom means that I have very little time to myself. My world revolves around three little men. Taking time just for ‘mom’ makes me feel selfish. I can wait … my kids need me now. When is now?
You don’t have to be on a beach somewhere to catch up on some much-needed down time. You can do it right where you are, right this very minute. And I’m not talking an hour, I’m talking an entire day. 24 straight hours. No cooking, no cleaning, no working, no errands. Just rest. Spending time with one another, sharing stories or feelings. Investing in your relationship with one another and with God.
A very good friend of mine, Katie, were talking about how other faiths are so intriguing. I have a friend from college who has grown strong in her Jewish faith. I loved spending time with her and her husband learning about their faith and beliefs. They take Saturday (sun down on Friday to sun up on Sunday) as a day of rest. They do nothing but spend time with others – others in their same faith, friends or family. Years ago they invited Doug, Jaden and I to share their holy day with them. The time felt indulgent. It felt selfish – taking an entire day to rest. The thought of how much needs to get done interrupts my thoughts, makes me feel agitated. Yet, I felt honored to be included in such a special time. To be 100% honest, it made me a little envious. Their church really believes in this and stresses the importance.
I’m not saying that my church doesn’t believe that Sunday is a holy day and meant for rest. Of course we believe that. But we aren’t so diligent about taking a full day as rest. I find that it feels irresponsible and selfish. It feels lazy to let all the responsibilities of being a mom, wife and homeowner go for an entire day. Yet we were made with that very intent in mind. We were made to rest on the seventh day. It’s the way the world was meant to work. The fact that we don’t rest is proof that this world is broken.
So … how do I calm down enough to rest? How do I find the peace to sleep at night? Is there enough rest in your own life? Are you brave enough to claim a full day as rest in your own family? Are you strong enough to actually rest and not start clipping coupons instead? I’ll be honest, I’m not so sure that I am. First, I can’t sit still while watching tv, I’m not sure I can do it for a whole day. Second, Doug isn’t of the same faith as I am and I’m not so sure he’ll buy in on a whole day of rest 🙂 He’s really the driving force in the house to get stuff done. I think I might drive him over the edge by asking for every Sunday to be a “down” day. I do think it’s important enough to have the conversation and see if we can come to a marital agreement 🙂
I desire to live my life in a way that is pleasing to God. I pray that my words, actions and thoughts are proof of who I am and who I am meant to be. Sometimes I’m not really sure who I am meant to be … but it’s all apart of life. I just pray that I can be the best whoever-I’m-supposed-to-be that I can be.