I’ve been reading the book of Mark this past week for my church small group study. The devotional method we are supposed to be using is called the “Picture It” method. Basically you picture what it would have been like to be each character in the story. So for the story of Jesus healing the paralyzed man who was lowered into the room by his friends – imagine what it would have been like for the man on the mat. Picture what it would have been like to be the friends who lowered him down. Or to be in the crowd watching the whole thing unfold.
Every time I try to think about who I relate to the most in these stories – I can’t help feeling like the one who needs to be healed. On my knees begging for Jesus to give me a miracle – to make me whole again. I’m not ashamed to say that I’m broken – to say that I don’t know where to turn some days. The confusion is paralyzing and the strength isn’t there when I need it.
At church on Sunday, we read this verse:
He said to me, “My grace is enough for you, because power is made perfect in weakness.” So I’ll gladly spend my time bragging about my weaknesses so that Christ’s power can rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9
It’s ok to be weak because it’s those cracks that God’s power is able to work. I need to be broken so that God can use me to do His will. It’s just like when Owen was in the hospital. My strength and blog posts didn’t come from me – God used my brokenness to show His power. How else would 150,000 people come together, from all over the world, to read the same story on the same day? That’s power. 100’s of people come to a church all dressed in orange – I saw a sea of power when I looked out over the filled seats and people standing in the back. The cracks filled with God’s love and strength.
While I am brutally reminded of just how broken I am – I am also reminded that it is through the same weakness that God can make me perfect again. Be honest and truthful about your weaknesses. Speak of them with your friends. Pray about them. Bring them to the feet of the One who has power. Do not be ashamed – God loves you just the way you are.